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Fucking stop it, Lara! I never raped anyone. I never even considered it. You have to stop treating me that way. It isn’t fair.
If I get frustrated or angry, if I raise my voice, it doesn’t mean I’m abusive; I’m not going to rape you someday.
I’m human. I lose my cool. I have a temper. I’m working on it. And my outbursts never go beyond some irrational screaming. There has never been a moment during any outburst when I considered hitting you. I know you worry about that, too.
I know you can’t help it. I know this is part of what they did to you. I always remember that. But I am human. I do have my limits. I’m going to lose my grip sometimes.
I’m not them! God damn it, Lara! I could never rape you!! How can you not know that about me? You’re supposed to love me.
I’m sorry. I have to scream that out sometimes. You have to let me do that, sometimes. You have to accept that. I can’t help it. I’m not a rapist. I’m just a man. I’m human.
I feel hurt sometimes. I feel scared. I feel like hiding. It makes me feel better to yell it all out, so I do.
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