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Everything I write has a hint of a suicide note. It’s the dark undercurrent of all my stories. I can’t help it. I’ve thought about it all my life.
What would I write in my suicide note? It’s the greatest writing assignment. It’s the ultimate inspiration.
So, I’ve been waiting. I’m waiting for my muse to find me. I’ve been waiting for a long while. What will my ultimate inspiration be? What will finally push me to take my own fucking life? Imagine the writing I will do in those last few moments.
After every setback, every failure, after every single rejection, I wonder. Is this it? Is this what will finally break me. Is this what will inspire my greatest poem?
I am a very patient artist.
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